Goddess of .. Jogging makes me want to kill myself !

Ahem. Yes, it's true.. jogging makes me suicidal.

*Okay, okay, that may be a teeny tiny wee-bit of exageration but you get the point : I HATE JOGGING (and I'm pretty sure Jogging hates me)...*

I went jogging with Lolita last night .. and it just confirmed how badly out-of-shape I am.
I stopped going to the gym around the time my parents separated and I started my internship (so around Christmas '08-January '09).

That was the BIGGEST MISTAKE OF MY LIFE !!! I'm telling you, if you're on a good work-out schedule .. DO NOT EVER stop. If you do eff up like me and stop, you're an idiot. Simply because when you do muster up the courage to start again, it's going to hurt, I mean like really H-U-R-T .. like death on a stick !!!!

You know I cultivate the impossible (for now) dream of running a marathon or half-marathon and you may also know that, even back in May, I couldn't run without getting the feeling that I was getting choked to death.

Anyhow, my lack of motivation is obvious and all I could think, the whole time I was running, was how much I hate running. Lolita reminded me I needed to push myself more and that I need to do it a few more times before I start to feel better about it. And well, I agree, I've been there before.

So, I tried to think happy thoughts ... *cricket sounds* ... nothing.

I tried switching the song on my iPod everytime I thought of something negative .. which worked a couple times .. but only ended in a furry of button-pressing madness until finally, I just couldn't switch the songs fast enough anymore. I had had enough.

I can't say that I felt better afterwards and I am sore this morning, but I'm not giving up on physical activity. I still love to ride my bicycle, I love kayaking, I love yoga (not HOT yoga though.. remember here and here) and more.

Lolita and I went cycling last weekend and have more plans to go bike by the water this weekend, I am looking forward to getting a tan (ahem. it's an illusion, my pale skin can't tan) and a workout ! Yay, I'm really excited !

P.S. That's my old hand-me-down bike on the right ! I need to get it checked .. I noticed last sunday that I have a flat tire (possibly both, actually). Until then, I'll use Lolita's instead because she prefers rollerblading anyway.