Goddess of .. Trading Spring Flings for Spring Things !

Uhmm, Spring Flings .. well maybe not so much. Any resemblance of a love life I may have had is a thing of the past .. and by past I mean .. 2009. Yup, it is that sad. Can't believe it's February already. I haven't met, been on a date or even flirted with anyone since Stuart in December '09 .. and even then, he was a big disappointment which I'd rather forget about.

I'm in a great mood though. Single, jobless and happy. Could it be ?

There may not be any Spring Flings anywhere in sight for me but there are still plenty of Spring Things to feast my eyes on :

Like photographs by The Sartorialist

Like catching up on the crazy drama of Gossip Girl

Like a Valentine's Day movie date with my (single) girlfriends

Like my awesome new red carry-on

33.99$ CAD @ Costco .. get yours today ;o)

Like all things nautical for spring-summer 2010

Spring Fling - Nautical by AritzaGoddess using Burberry shoes

How about you, bloggies ? What are some of your Spring Things ?

.. or are you sticking to Spring Flings this year ?

You know you love me. XOXO

Goddess of .. If you could be anything, what would YOU be ?

I've been blue and a little off the radar, but I will return to normal eventually, I'm sure. I used to blog mostly at work when I was bored .. so without work, I blog less. Silly, right ? Anywowzer, I woke up in a really good mood today. I was having a silly dream and Mr. Unreliable was in it. He's kinda short and a little fat .. and he was running to catch up to someone .. and he looked silly. I was laughing at him (I'm a meanie, I know) and I was laughing so hard .. that I woke up. So, that put me in a good mood, lol !

Anywowzer, I've been busy at home. Until yesterday, I was elbow-deep in papers and stupid little nic nacs as I tried to get some order in my "office" and bedroom. My parents split up last year and now they are getting around to dividing their assets, mainly, the houses. Soooo, to make a really long story short, my mom hired an evaluator to establish the value of our home .. and he came yesterday morning. Obviously, we had to do a major clean up and put everything in order. So that's that.. we're just getting out of that. It looks amazing now though, so I'm really happy !

Other than that, I still haven't received a call for an interview. I have applied to a bunch of places that are interesting (in commercial or labour/employment law) but no news.. I've been unemployed for 3 weeks now. Wow, time flies.

{ No pressure, right ? }

Also, I have been questionning myself (for years) about what I really wanna do. Most people know right away, riiiight ??

- I like cooking and baking, I think I could like being a pastry chef.

- I like food and being judgemental, I think I could be a food critic.
But really, the odds of that happening are quite slim.

- I like travelling and sleeping in hotel beds, I think I could be a hotel critic.
Haha, again, odds are slim.

- I like fashion and design, I think I could be an interior designer.

- I like art and museums, I think I could work in a gallery or be a curator in a museum.

- I like volunteering and helping people, I think I could be a volunteer.
But that doesn't really pay the bills now, does it ?

- I like making money and having good social standing, I think I could put up with being a lawyer for 10 years and then, do whatever it is that I really wanna do. That was the original plan.

Gahhhh, this can drive me crazy. The possibilities just keep spinning in my head. None of them seems like the perfect and obvious choice. I think there must be a career I haven't heard of yet that fits my personality perfectly, right ?? Any ideas ?

If I could be anything in the whole wide world, I would be : HAPPY !

Yeah, that's all I got for now.

If you could be anything, what would YOU be ?

Goddess of .. Where In The World Wednesday - Volume 4 !

Public Service Announcement : I want to welcome all new bloggies, there's quite a few newbies around here (now 46 followers, yay!). Make yourselves at home :o), comment whenever possible (wink, wink) and enjoy the ride !

So, without further ado, it's that time again bloggies !

The 4th edition of Where In The World wednesdays !

(Jessica @ Classy in Philadelphia started this feature)

"Basically, each week I will post a new picture of me in some place I've traveled to (or if not me, a photo I took at a place I traveled to).

If a lot of people participate, it will be a fun way to see where some of our favorite bloggers have traveled! It doesn't have to be recent, it doesn't have to be somewhere foreign or tropical. Just anywhere you consider traveling!"

Today's feature : As you may know, if you've been reading for a while, I took my mom on a trip to Philadelphia in April 2009. We were celebrating her 60th birthday ! The picture on the left was taken next to the Reading Market Terminal, our first stop in the city.. where we enjoyed some delicious cheesesteak sandwiches .. I'll be baaaaaack ! The second picture was taken in front of the gorgeous Swann Memorial Fountain, in Logan Circle.. right next to the Philly Free Library. I was so exhausted that day, it was Easter day .. we had breakfast at Sabrina's Café & Spencer's too.. later we visited the Rodin Museum and in the afternoon, Eastern State Penitentiary .. ohh and we stopped for a snack.. cinnamo-sugared donuts & locally-brewed chocolate beer at The Belgian Café. It was a loooong day, but totally amazing !

Flowers blossoming near Reading Terminal Market

&

Swann Memorial Fountain in Logan circle

My delicious cheesesteak sandwich @ Spataro's Cheesesteaks

 in Reading Terminal Market

&

Cinnamon-sugared donuts and locally-brewed chocolate beer @ The Belgian Café

located on the corner of 21st street & Green street

Excuse the late post but fotoflexer did NOT cooperate with me today.. Actually, I even tried preparing the photos yesterday .. and even then, fotoflex was being a little witch. Urgh.

Kisses & much love,

Goddess of .. Popcorn, crispers, milky ways and jelly beans !

Amongst other things, I've been eating a shitload of those things to compensate. It's bad. But oh so good.

Seriously, if I am still single in a couple months, I'll probably have doubled in size. People will not recognize me. I will be a whale. A happy, fully-chocolated, Bridget Jones-esque kinda whale.

...

Last blog entry was my whole Blogger's Blues jizz and that was last tuesday.

On wednesday, driving home from my bellydancing class, I saw Rami's car parked close to one of his friends' place .. about 10 minutes from my house.. and that got me thinking of him even more.

On thursday, Lolita and Violet came over to my place for dinner with my mom and I, and we enjoyed some (really delicious) cheese fondue. It was (ten kinds of) awesome.

After dinner, the three of us girls went out to our usual spot for thursday night drinks. That place is practically our home. We walked in and then, it happened. Rami was standing. right. there.

Sure, it was bound to happen.. we all (me + friends and Rami + friends) go to this bar pretty regularly. I had been (semi-secretly) hoping to bump into him at some point .. but I was still a little bit in shock to see him. I hadn't seen him in 2 months .. his hair was longer and he looked tired. It was dejà vu .. it seems that "All we ever do is say goodbye".

Violet said "Hi" to him first and then, Lolita did too. I was the last one .. so him and I chatted (small talk) for a couple minutes. It was a little weird to pretend like he hadn't texted me less than a week ago, asking me to come see him .. and the previous week as well. We chatted politely as though we really hadn't talked in two months. I tried to act all cool and distant.. and for the most part, I think it worked.

It didn't make me feel any better though.

Less than two minutes later, a friend pulled him away or perhaps it was Lolita who asked me what I wanted to order.. I don't remember. Anywowzer, our convo ended there. The girls and I spent the evening surrounded by Rami and most of his (and Ross') friends .. but we did our own thing. It was fun but also awkward. I did my best to act like I was fabulous and having a blast .. although I only had Rami on my mind. There he was, standing just a few steps away from me, smelling like his delicious self .. but nothing had changed, so it had to be this way. I had to keep a distance.

Much later in the evening, Ross arrived .. and eventually made his way over to Lolita. They had a long chat, Lolita confronted him about his new girlfriend .. he was uncomfortable .. she explained to him that he couldn't keep treating people the way he had treated her .. and he listened. I watched them have this conversation and I could see how Ross looked at her, it was obvious he always had and still had feelings for her. Sadly, he's not mature enough for now and he'll probably realize his mistake in 6 months .. when it's too late.

Around 2am, the girls and I left the bar. I knew Rami was still there but I didn't go say "bye" and he didn't come to me either.. although I was hoping he would. But really, I have such irrealistic expectations when it comes to this guy. Ironically, we said "bye" to everyone of his friends but him. I felt guilty and really hoped that he wouldn't think I was mean .. but the truth is, he probably didn't even think twice about this, sadly.

Friday and Saturday nights were the loneliest. Violet and Lolita had dates with their current love interests .. and not the kind of dates that end at 10pm. So I was alone.. and  considered quite seriously texting Rami.. but I didn't. I knew it would only bring a temporary fix to my loneliness and then I would be left alone again in a panic / frenzy.

I questioned myself about my options : either A) be alone and miserable .. or B) get a fix of Rami .. and then be alone and miserable. When I put it that way, the fix started to sound even better .. so I did my best to push those thoughts outta my head.

Instead, I ate some crispers, popcorn, milky ways and jelly beans.

Oh bloggies, please restrain me from buying a cat. I don't even like cats.

Anywowzer, I shall restrain myself from adopting a puppy.